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Can’t Put it Into Words

July 19, 2009 Wanderer 3 comments

We had a code the other night.  It was by far the “best” code I’ve ever been privy to.  No yelling orders, no standing around waiting, no egos, just a concerted effort to save a dying (well, dead) patient.  The resident running the code was calm, cool and collected.  As we did our interventions he worked through the H’s & T’s trying to figure out if we could fix anything.  Outside of my ACLS megacode, I’ve never seen that.  But moreso, he asked the staff if there was anything that we thought he had missed.  And before he called it, he aksed if anyone else had any objections.  Truly it was a team effort.

But for some reason I can’t seem to shake it off.  I had no real connection to the patient, other than being the charge nurse.  They weren’t one of our frequent flyers.  But something reached ahold of me and won’t seem to let go.

Maybe it was the fact we found her already down in her room.  Or the fact I felt the ribs snap under my palms.  Or it was that we did CPR on her for 30 minutes, rotating between 2, then three of us.  Or that we threw everything in the code cart at her, and some things that weren’t,  but nothing seemed to help.  Our CPR was some of the best I’ve ever seen/felt.  We shocked her a total of 9 times.  She got tubed incredibly quick.  But it didn’t seem to matter.

For the last couple of nights, I’ve laid awake and thought about it.  Re-running it over in my head, which then sparks memories of other codes and then to the memory of running in to see them performing CPR on my little girl.  For some reason, this one cracked my shell.  Like the title says, I can’t put words to the feeling.

Maybe though, it re-affirms that I am human and that I do care, something that I’ve been feeling a great distance from.  Maybe I’ve grown cold over it all- something my wife mentioned in passing not too long ago.  Maybe this nagging sense of malaise over this event is me re-examining myself over this coldness and cynicism and the realization that I’ve moved that direction has left me a little out of sorts.  More than anything though, it serves as a reality check, a visceral reminder of what we do as nurses when things do go south.

I know with time this angst and malaise over it will fade.  I’ll make peace with the way I feel about it, but like all the others, I’ll never forget.

Summer Medblog Smackdown

June 27, 2009 Wanderer 4 comments

In booming announcer voice…

“Ladies and gentleman, boys and girls children of all ages…welcome to the Interwebs Arena for our main event of the  Summer…”

“Fighting out of the Doctor’s Corner wearing the red trunks, the contender from a big hospital somewhere in America.  With a record of 200,000 and 0, years and years of residency training, thousands of sidebar ads and an ego a mile wide, Happy “I’m a Medical Doctor and have my own way of running a code” Hospitalist! …”

“And out of the Nurse’s Corner, wearing the blue trunks, the challenger from a big ER somewhere else in America.  With a record of a million saves, years of being at the front lines of American health care, a chip on her shoulder and Dr. Bloody Gloves in her corner, Nurse “The Snarkinator, can’t believe Happy runs a Code like this” K! …..”

crowd goes wild…

“Let’s get ready to ruuuuuuuumble…..!”

referee…

“OK you two, let’s have a clean fight.  No low blows, no crayzee talk…oh whatever, just come out swinging.”

announcer

Happy and Nurse K are at it again.  Sit back and enjoy the show.

Not going to say who’s right, who’s wrong (although Nurse K is right dude, either wake the patient up for fucks sake, hello, sternal rub ‘em! or pull the cord for the code team), but it sure is turning out to be a real smackdown.  I mean between Happy’s smug aloofness and K’s snark attack, you’ve got a real read on your hands.

Happy’s Post: Michael Jackson May Have Died From Fibromyalgia

Nurse K’s Rebuttal: How to resuscitate a patient Happy-style

Happy’s Attempt to hide the fact he got pwned: Is It Reasonable to Stock Every Room With Emergency Resuscitation Supplies

Would you two just get a room or something…

Edit: K just posted up a rebuttal to Happy’s rebuttal (a double butt-al?)  Face it bro, you’re getting pwned.  Throw the towel.

Kind of weird

June 20, 2009 Wanderer 1 comment

It’s kind of weird to see a co-worker looking at your blog while at work and having no clue that the author is sitting less than ten feet away.  Or at least they didn’t say anything about it..

Oh yeah, it looks like Mr. Black Cloud is back.

Why do patients try to die right before shift change?  Don’t they know the last thing I want to do before I go home is send them to the Unit.  Well, I wanted to send this guy to the Unit, he was Sick (notice capital S?).   But why at all times to crump than at 6am?  It must be my luck.

When You Lose

April 19, 2009 Wanderer 1 comment

You get used to seeing your frequent flyers, knowing their idiosyncrasies, learning their stories, sharing in their pain and struggle and once they are gone it almost leaves and empty void.  We lost one of those a couple of weeks ago, and I’m still dealing with it as it hit far too close to home.

Part of that was she was young.  My age young.  My wife’s age young.  With a family, children, hopes and dreams.  Another part was that we had brought her back once before.  The progression of her disease was insidious, things compounding into one another, each adding to the vicious cycle, adding momentum, gaining speed as she careened towards the final dance.  The heart failure brought about due to peripartum cardiomyopathy got worse.   The ray of hope that a heart transplant provided was shut out as her kidneys failed and the transplant folks never accepted her inability to lose those last 10 pounds.  I don’t think they realized that losing weight requires exercise and that it’s near impossible to exercise when your ejection fraction is 15%.

She had been on our floor for some time, then went to the ICU as she was no longer stable enough to be with us.  Dialysis at the bedside, levophed to keep her blood pressure high enough to perfuse the brain and what was left of her heart.  She told one of the aides that she wanted to come out to us, instead of our sister floor, when it was time to leave the ICU.  Her kids would come to visit, family too.  And finally it was enough.  She decided that she was done.  She was done with the fight that she had been fighting for so long.  How much of her youth had been spent dealing with this disease?  How much time away from her family had it robbed from her?  She had spent more time in the hospital this year than she spent at home.  So without telling anyone except the docs and nurses, she stopped everything and slipped away.  Selfish?  Maybe.  Maybe it was the action of someone who was just done.

I came back from time off and noticed that the location was no longer next to her name…never a good sign when someone was as sick as she was.  I asked and learned the truth.  I played with the idea of going to her service, but felt odd about it.  It didn’t feel right to intrude upon her family’s’ grieving in that fashion.  I still managed to say good-bye in my own way.

As a health-care provider, death is around us all the time.  I’ve eliucidated my views on death many times, and believe that it is a part of our journey, but when it happens to someone that you know, someone that you’ve taken care of, someone whose life you’ve saved, someone who is close in age to the wife you love, it hits far too close.  I know that she is somewhere better, freed from the shackles of her disease, resting peacefully now.

Blackcloud’s back. Maybe.

July 26, 2008 Wanderer 1 comment

I knew the streak had to come to an end.  The lack of code/RRT streak that is.  It’s ben since the 13th of June since I was involved in such a situation.  That really is a whole bunch of charge shifts too, by the way.  And nothing, nada, zilch.  Until tonight.  Respiratory distress, leading to a bed in the Unit.  I’m hoping Blackcloud was just in for a visit, nothing permanent.

We’ll see.

How I Spent the 4th.

July 5, 2008 Wanderer Leave a comment

Getting the snot beat out of me… I don’t know if the guy who gave me this as a prize was commenting on my masculinity (or lack thereof…) or that maybe, he instinctively knew I was a nurse and knew the true roots of “Girl Power!” My second thought was, “Is it that obvious I work with all women?” He must have been a psychic as well as a carnie.

The coolest thing though happened to me at work this morning. I always feel weird around those who I’ve performed CPR on – those that have survived. So imagine my surprise the other night when our Code from the Night of Many Codes came back to the floor. As committed team member I went in with another nurse to get a patient cleaned up for the day. It was a bit odd, as laying here was a patient who last time I had seen them was quite nearly dead, if not truly dead. That night his pressures had been dropping all night and just didn’t look good. Respiratory status diminishing, really working hard. I pop in to see if the the nurse needs anything and end up finding the blood pressure as 60 palp. Things progress to a full blown Code. Luckily, being a fresh post-op heart, the wires were still in place. But until we got them hooked up to the temporary pacer, we had to do CPR. On a fresh heart. At least we didn’t have to worry about breaking ribs. The strange thing was the supple compliance of the sternum being held together by surgical steel wires. CPR was downright easy on this patient.

Now imagine my surprise when they’re pretty much neurologically intact, granted they stayed a month in the Unit and their kidneys went to hell, but they’re alive and talking to us. As we go about the tasks of turning, moving, sliding, rearranging linens, getting a new sling positioned (did I mention they can’t help much with care..) He says, “Hey,watch out for my chest!” pointing at their sternum. “It still hurts, had a lot of trauma to it.”

The other nurse looked over at me and we both grinned and chuckled. He continued, “What’s so funny?”

“Nothing,” I say, “We know you’ve had some trauma there. And let me just say I’m sorry about that.”

I didn’t fill him in on the fact I had been pumping on his chest 3 weeks ago or anything like that. Just took the opportunity to say sorry!

Coincidence?

June 13, 2008 Wanderer 3 comments

While I may be superstitious, my rational side is usually able to concoct an explanation for circumstances of what may seem to be divine intervention, or lack thereof.  But I can’t on this one.  The only plausible explanation, the only one that makes even a shred of sense is the totally irrational one.  How else could you explain 6 codes in 1 night?

Yes, we have sick people, sicker than normal in house right now.  But 6 codes?  That’s more than a typical week, even more than a typical month.  So yes, 6 codes, 4 in the Unit, one upstairs and one on my floor.  The code team was looking ragged, the doc looked like she was one of the walking dead herself after being abused all night long.  I think our Materials people were going to throw a fit if they had to throw together another fresh code cart.  It was one of those nights.

But the explanation you ask?  Friday the 13th.  It’s the only one that makes any sense at all.  Even though it was only the 13th for half of last night, it’s insidious reach kept things interesting.  The worst part of it all though is that now, tonight, Mr. Blackcloud (me…) is in charge.  I’m calling staffing right now to make sure the ICU is well staffed and checking with Materials to get an extra cart up to my floor, just in case.  Let’s hope the universe got it all out of its system last night and things will go smooth.

Let’s play a game…my turn

May 8, 2008 Wanderer 1 comment

You’re helping turn your patient in bed as a nurses runs past going, “Where’s Mitch, I can’t find him.  87’s in trouble.”  It settles in for a second…”Oh shit!  I’m covering for Mitch!”  You then run for 87.

The patient is face down on the ground, legs splayed under the bed, maintaining an airway, but only briefly.  So, now what?  With the RT maintaining C-spine, we turn her over and start help her with her airway. By this time, the room is beginning to fill up.  Someone asks, “Anyone have a history?”

“Ummm, she’s not mine, but I know her,” I say, “30 year old, history of part-partum cardiomypathy, s/p ICD and pacer implant.  Issues with hypokalemia and fluid retention.  We found her face down.”

“You guys have a pulse? We have a rhythm…” a resident asks.  I feel around the area where a femoral pulse should be…nada, nothing.  I’m digging into the layers of subcutaneous fat and feel nothing.  “No pulse!  Starting CPR.”

So what do we have?  PEA. Pulseless Electrical Activity.  A tele nurse’s worst nemesis.  The monitor looks good, but no perfusion.  The AICD isn’t firing beacause it sees a rhythm.  The pacer is just going along all happy, but the heart ain’t working.  So, we all remember the famous H’s and T’s from ACLS, right?

Warning: Educational Content

Hypovolemia
H
ypoxia
H
ydrogen Ion (acidosis)
H
yperkalmia
H
ypothermia
T
oxins
T
amponade (cardiac)
T
ension (pneumo)
T
hrombosis (coronary or pulmonary)

I couldn’t remember these for the life of me, so I found a couple others, just to keep the mind fresh.

ITCH PAD
Infarct, Tension/Tamponade, Hypovolemia/hypothermia/hypo-hyperkalemia/hypoxemia/hypomagnesia, PE, Acidosis, Drugs.

PATCH MED
PE, Acidosis, Tension pneumo, Cardiac Tamponade, Hypovolemia/hypothermia/hypo-hyperkalemia/hypoxemia/hypomagnesia, MI, Electrolyte imbalance, Drugs

So there we are, performing CPR on the floor.  She gets tubed.  Draw labs, slaine running wide open.  We get a pulse back.  Then we lose it, start CPR.  Give Epi, get it back.  Hang dopamine.  Monitor shows wide-complex beats with pacer spikes.  Get a backboard under her.  Lose the pulse again, re-start CPR.  Get her to the Unit and they start working her.  Levophed, dopamine cranked up, vasopressin, D50 w/10units of regular insulin – just in case, bicarb, as I leave the docs are there starting an arterial line in her femoral.

So what happened?

Brief synopsis:

Dilated cardiomyopathy, renal insuffciency, fluid overload, chronic hypokalemia secondary to diuretics (today was 2.2, got 60mEq of KCL x2 and doses of Lasix and Zaroxlyn), urine output over day was low, found down after complaining to nurse about shortness of breath.  Has implanted AICD/Pacer.

I’ll post the end result in a day or two after I finish my stretch of days on.  Or if people are begging…

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Happy Ending?

May 1, 2008 Wanderer 2 comments

No.  Not that kind.  But a happy ending to a code.  It’s rare.  I’ve seen it now only twice (and a third may be underway, but that’s for another post).  Most of the Codes we have on the floor do not end well.  It either ends in the patient being pronounced on the floor, or later on that night, or sometimes week in the Unit.  Our Rapid Responses seem to have better outcomes, but then again, folks usually aren’t dead when we call a RRT.

The other night was going along as planned.  Assessments and vitals, med and insulin being handed out like candy when I walk out into the station from the med room.  You could tell something was afoot, there was just a buzz, almost an anticipatory buzz that something might happen.  Hoping not, but sometimes you just know something bad was coming.  We knew one of our co-workers had a patient who was starting to decompensate, badly, but was still stable.  I had run into her in the med room about an hour back and learned what was up, but she was holding her own.  John, as I’ll call him, had been admitted for pulmonary edema, spent a night in the Unit and come up to us in the afternoon.  He was going for an angio the next day, but was becoming increasingly short of breath, and his BP was way up, like 190’s over 100’s.  So I decide to go check on her.  Sometimes just having someone pop their head in to check on you when you’re in a situation can be stressful (see the landing scene in Airplane), but in others, it’s comforting to know you’re not alone.

I get in the room and look over at John.  He does not look good.  He’s sitting up at the side of the bed, in a semi-tripod sort of position, non-rebreather mask on, and working pretty hard.  I glance down at the portable pulse oximeter on the bed beside him; it reads 78%.  On 15L NRB.  Not good.  Angie, the nurse looks at me, “Let’s get him back into bed, see if we can get him breathing better.”

We move him back, but as we’re getting him settled, he lolls his head back.  “Shit!”  I think.  “I’m going for the cart, you might want to call an RRT”  I say as I dash out the room.  Luckily, John’s doc is still at the station, as I blow past him, “You really need to go see John, he’s crashing quick!”

Down the hall as I hear the clarion call of the overhead calling out for an RRT.  I look at the other nurse’s station and make eye contact with my charge nurse and say, “You might want to join us, we’re having a little fun down here!”  Totally calm, totally collected.  Her jaw drops, but I’m already down the hallway with the cart.  Twenty feet down I hear a Code being called overhead and see the unit secretary gesturing violently to “get my ass down here, now!”

The other staff are pulling furniture and family out of the room as I run the cart inside.  The doc is at the bedside as we hook John up to the monitor.  We’ve got a pulse, but his beating is getting worse, more wet, more ragged and he’s working very, very hard.  By now the room is filling up with people; RT, ICU nurses, our charge, dietary, other nurses, housekeeping and a couple of residents.  Break the cart open to grab airway supplies.  The doc calls for a Mac 3, which I hand over to him.  Funny thing, I only worked in the ER as a student for 3 weeks, but knew exactly what to hand him and even checked to see if the light was working, almost by reflex, weird.

He tries to intubate, but no joy, tube’s in the stomach.  He calls out, “Can I get some roc (rocuronium, a paralytic)?”   Someone else pipes up, “Don’t you want some sedation first?”  John is bucking now, he was fighting the tube on the first pass and now his pressure is through the roof, 220’s over 120’s, but with a strong pulse and good rhythm, his body is just in survival mode.   Dude was a rock.  The rest of the room was pretty much chaos.  Pharmacy didn’t have Versed with them, so it had to be raided out of Pyxis.  The portable suction machine was about to die.  RT is trying to maintain a patent airway and bag John.  Calamity.  Then anesthesia steps up ad takes over.  Like a captain of a foundering ship, he takes control.  It was intense to see.  Totally cool, calm and collected, he starts giving orders.

He asks for vitals.  The ICU nurses can’t seem to figure out how to cycle the automatic BP cuff and are getting increasingly flustered.  I can’t do it, I’m guarding the only site of access available at the moment.  I look over and my buddy Ken is next to me, contorted taking a manual blood pressure.  He’s tucked under my arm, craning his neck to see the dial on the wall behind anesthesia, and in spite of everything, gets it.  We push nitro and labetalol to bring down his pressures, then Versed to knock him out and now, some rocuronium to paralyze him.  I’m juggling syringes and flushes, wishing I had an extra hand, but somehow keeping them straight.

Now sedated and paralyzed, he gets intubated. But when the stylus is pulled out, a stream of pink frothy liquid comes shooting out of the ET tube.  Massive flash pulmonary edema.  The look on anesthesia’s face is priceless: a mix of awe, wonder and sheer terror, as he had been in the line of fire seconds before.  More meds, start running a nitro drip and we get John packaged for transport.  RT is bagging John sporting the oh-so fashionable face mask provided to them to protect from flying froth.  And off to the ICU we go.

We get John settled into his new bed in the ICU and one of the ICU nurses, who had previously been, well, freaking out, looked over and said, “You guys did a great job up there.”

“Thanks,” I said as I grabbed the bed and our transport monitor along with the other little bits we needed to return and headed back upstairs. Waiting for the elevator I feel the adrenaline slowly staring to fade and the post-rush shakes starting.  When I get back upstairs, anesthesia is still there writing his note, looks up and says, “You guys did a great job in there.”  Wow, twice in five minutes, I guess our floor does have it together.  Talking about it later with Ken, he says, “Y’know, we (our floor’s nurses) were the only cool heads in that room.  You totally calm, it was awesome.”

Fast forward a week.

I figured John had been in pretty bad shape.  I wasn’t expecting to see him sitting in bed as I walked into one of my rooms to introduce myself as his nurse for the night thought.  I said, “You look a heck of a lot better than the last time I saw you!”

“I’m sure” he replied, “But I really don’t remember all that much about it.  Just glad I came out of it OK.”

Well they had done the angio and found he had severe triple vessel disease only correctable through bypass and was schedule for surgery in the morning.  I made sure I spent a little extra time with him that night, just making sure he was comfortable and ready to roll.  He was up bright and early to get prepped for surgery, and for once I didn’t forget to do anything off the checklists. I wished him luck as he slid over to the gurney on his way to the OR and said, “I’ll see you when you get back up here.”

And you know what?  He sailed through surgery and recovery like a champ.  Last I saw him, the day before discharge, he was up, walking around, weak, but doing well.  He ended up going home the very next day.  Like I said, a happy ending.

Dear Doctor.

March 26, 2008 Wanderer 1 comment

Letters I wish I could write, but never will.

#1

Dear Doctor Dumbass,

I realize in your three years of residency that you have seen and taken care of many patients with syncopal episodes. I know it in fact. But why this time, in spite of report that the patient lost consciousness for a full minute as he DFO’d, and not because he hit his head, did you write his activity to be up “ad lib”? You’re lucky us nurses can think for ourselves and suggested to your patient to stay in bed until we got him a little more rehydrated and then get out of bed, but only with help.

We know and understand that this is a small concept, but we’re big fans of patient safety and having someone pass out on you tends to sour our night. We would rather not have to scrape your patient up off the floor they hit as they passed out and fell. And honestly, the incident report takes far too much time to correctly fill out. Time that is spent saving patients from themselves.

Thank you,

Your Floor Nurses.

#2

Dear Doctor Asshole,

We would like to apologize for dragging you out from your peaceful slumber in the resident’s quarters when we called an RRT on a patient that needed a little extra special attention. We could tell by your rumpled clothes, lack of spark in those half-shut eyes of yours and the sheet impressions on your face that we had roused you from a good night’s sleep; and we apologize.

That said, do not treat us like shit. We have the right, no the responsibility to call a RRT for whatever reason, especially if we feel our patient is having an acute decompensation.  We are doing our job.  Do not belittle us by yelling over the presentation to you saying, “Why did you call an RRT?” with a sneer on your face and dismissive tine in your voice.  While we wanted to say, “Just to wake your sorry ass up,” we didn’t and pointed out the patient’s labored and frothy breathing, the patient’s heart rate of 170 (one which your colleague Dr. Dumbass hadn’t placed on tele on admit) and SPO2 in the 80’s with a NRB mask on. We asked for your exalted guidance and inspiring leadership in a tense situation made only tenser by the fact you are a fuckwad, who speaks to family, the husband of the poor woman about to buy herself a tube, the man who has stood by her side and cared for her every moment of her end-stage Parkinson’s disease, who bought all the necessary equipment, including a Hoyer lift, to care for her at home, lambasting him about his decision to keep the love of his life a full code, in spite of her terminal condition. Refusing to believe him up to the minute where that man tells you to, “Intubate her.”  Love drives us to do what many see as irrational things, but it is not our place to judge, especially in front of the loved ones.

And by the way, with an EKG with a rate of 150, those little triangular deflections in the EKG are not P-waves, see how regular they are? See how they merge into the QRS complexes? Yes, Dr. Asshole, that is a textbook example of 2:1 atrial flutter, not sinus tachycardia. It’s sad that the lowly floor nurse can spot that and you can’t. It also really sucks when your attending tells us that you were wrong and we were right. We’re sorry that you are trying to make up for some obvious lack in your life (may I say manhood…?) by being a complete dick to everyone around you. It will not win you friends. We will chafe under you ham-handed management and surly attitude (I mean really, you aren’t a surgeon or cardiologist and don’t have the chops to back that attitude) until management gets the hint that you are more of a hindrance than help, if only from the sheer volume of write-ups with your name on them.  Until then go find something else, may we suggest a 2-seat convertible, to fulfill your manliness.

So pardon us for being frank, but we figured you needed to be taken down a notch or two.

Thank you,

Your Floor Nurses.

Passive-aggressive? Maybe a little. The sentiment is there though. Two stellar examples we shown to me this last weekend. While it may not seem like a lot, it is a trend of things with these two. You just scratch your head and do your best for the patient and family.  Keep them safe and as the wise man once said, “Air goes in and out, blood goes round and round; any deviation from this is bad,” we try to keep that premise, everyday.

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